Is Suicide A Selfish Act?

In my most desperate times, I see suicide as a possible release. A release from the depression, the negative thoughts, the strain and suffering. I truly see it as that and nothing more. At times, I’ve compared it to physician-assisted death, to myself only because I know a lot of people would feel differently. But I really do see myself in those stories.

Now I ask is it selfish, because one of my many support systems (i.e. one of my close friends) was absolutely livid that I couldn’t see it that way. To her, leaving your friends and family to mourn you was something you shouldn’t be able to even bear the thought. It was a selfish thing to do and something your family may never recover from.

Perhaps to me because these thoughts have been with me for so long, I don’t think of the repercussions as often anymore. Maybe I’m numb to the consequences. And my family knows of my depression, so would it really be that shocking?

But who are you living for at that point? For your family and friends, is that enough to live for?

3 thoughts on “Is Suicide A Selfish Act?

  1. sliceoflife11 says:

    I am not particularly close to my family and my late husband was the closest friend I had…. So I struggle to wonder what I am still doing here…

    If you have close friends/family, ket them help you and carry some weight for a while. If you don’t, see about consulting a psychologist to help. It’s been helping me.

    • Isabel Hunt says:

      Thank you for your comment. I’ve definitely depended on friends and family this past year. And I am grateful that they are in my life. I’m sorry to hear about your husband. Feel free to comment whenever you want to vent. I’m not sure if WordPress does direct msg. But I’m also on Twitter, where you can DM me if you need support. https://twitter.com/ahiddenlife2014

      I completely understand about him being your closest friend. My ex was also my best friend and it’s been a real struggle to face life without him. I know it’s not exactly the same but I think I can relate.

      Keep Well

      I.H.

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