I’m a pretty self-aware person. It’s very rare that my friends and family will tell me something about myself that I don’t already know. Now their opinions on my situation is another story (something that I welcome as it can help me see another side of things). But when it comes to me I mostly know what’s up.
One of the main reasons for my depression is my habitual comparison to others which include family and friends. With my siblings it started with academic accomplishments. When i was younger it was my school marks that had to be just as high. Now that I’m older I look at material things or life milestones, they bought a place at this age, they got married at this time etc. With my friends it’s a similar situation. I compare earnings (estimated of course), accomplishments, relationships – the whole deal. I constantly raise the bar for myself and need to be just as good as the best. You can imagine where that’s left me.