Epp! Today is Bell Let’s Talk day and I wanted to post something personal and deep. So I’ve decided to share my mental illness timeline with you which I am realizing is very personal but what the heck, here goes!
2000 – First signs of Depression, saw very first psychiatrist, 15 years old
2001/2002 – OCD starts to rear its ugly head, starts with germ obsession
2003/2004 – Takes year off before starting University away (not a horrible time, did stuff, saw docs)
2004 – Frosh week, first panic attack
2008 – Handling thesis, TA’ing, psych mentor program (I know, the irony) president duties, grad apps etc. A student (under supervision) tries to do exposure therapy with me for my OCD (horrid timing). Breakdown city. Still managed a pretty good GPA though. First time trying anti-depressants.
2009 – 2014 – Over 20 mental health professionals (the mental health system in Toronto is…interesting – more on that later), every drug possible (I mean every). A few moves around Toronto. A whole lot of therapy. More CBT (this time successful). Various jobs. Back to school for a post-grad certificate. Engaged!
2015 – Fiance ends things
2016-2018 – Moves back home to pull myself together
2018 – Love my job, love my place, back to loving life but will never be the same (truthfully, I think I will always have elements of depression in my life)
I wanted to clarify that although I write about my break up, it is by no means where my depression begun but it definitely set me back as you can imagine. Mental illness is a long road with ups and downs, lulls and highs, stability and chaos, tragedy and hilarity. All of the above came with so many rich stories and lessons that have truly made me into a resilient, super tough woman (still working on it of course, to grow is to live).
I cannot wait to share all my stories with you!
What does your mental illness timeline look like?