Ok, obviously there are a lot of things about your mental illness you could be embarrassed/ashamed about, especially when it comes to anxiety, depression, intrusive thoughts and of course the big one, suicidal ideation (which no one really wants to admit, who wants to tell people that?). And if it were a perfect world we … Continue reading One of the most embarrassing stages of my depression
Epp! Okay I know, New Years crap is over. Resolutions are made. Gym memberships paid for. And I'm sure there were tons of countdown episodes on entertainment TV and like MuchMusic and MTV (I only have an antenna and Netflix now so I'm assuming here). But I've been dying to write about how mental illness … Continue reading Mental Illness in Movies & TV: The Last Year
I know everyone is super focused on 2019 and #goals and so am I but I think it is also important to reflect on 2018 and have a hard look at what made it successful or a disaster. For me, it was a bit of a strange year as I spent about six months of … Continue reading What helped me with my mental health in 2018
Let me begin by saying I am no man expert (man-pert, if you will). In fact, I'm not very good with men (despite having my first boyfriend in Grade 4 - we held hands). I'm terrible at the "game." Usually, my past boyfriends have started out from friendships. BUT what I do know is mental … Continue reading Dating in 2018 and Having a Mental Illness: 8 Tips & Tricks to Avoid Getting Hurt
I've been having a hard time articulating this topic but it's one that keeps coming up for me and how I approach my life, especially my thought patterns (which is important to my mental health). I grew up in a Christian household, attending church most Sundays until I was about 13 years old. I used … Continue reading Who Is In Control, You or Jesus/the Universe?
Obviously, it hasn't been a stellar decade for racism in America. Police shootings, Trump etc., let's just say I'm not running over the border to be black in America any time soon. Naively, I've leaned towards the opinion that it's not as bad in Toronto, Canada. Not here, I'd think in my head (well I … Continue reading Is being black depressing me (more)?
It’s been one year, four months and thirteen days since he broke it off and I’m still reeling. Not on the bedroom floor crying (anymore) – thank God – just obsessively thinking about him and his new girlfriend/lady in his life (I’m not sure what she really is and I’m too scared to ask). To … Continue reading A Jilted Bride Update
I wrote a post last week about my latest dating adventure and I mention that a certain situation (the man not making sure I had a means to get home) has happened to me before. This is that first situation. We went to a movie that ended at about 8pm. And decided to walk to his … Continue reading Spoiled, Dating and Depressed
Now this has happened twice to me in the last year. But even the second time I feel hella good doing it/not standing for it. And that is odd for me because sometimes I can get down on myself instead. I am just too old for this foolishness. After meeting a suitor on Tinder (which … Continue reading When a man doesn’t drive you home. A dealbreaker? Hell yes!
Besides money (i.e. a good salary amount), over the past decade I've been searching for stability, something I didn't necessary have in my late teens. I was (and still am) looking for emotional stability as well as stability in my surroundings. Have I ever discovered it? In the last decade, perhaps for a few years. … Continue reading Stability with Depression – Part 1